May 19, 2025 It's a Pity Party!

 Come one, come all...it's a full-blown pity party and I'm the guest of honor! You will wish you had some crackers with this whine...

We leave in a couple of days for a long-anticipated trip. The bags are open on the floor in the dining room, adding to the existing upheaval. But soon, it will all be behind us. 

To throw somewhat of a pall on the joy of the upcoming adventure was the looming uncertainty of the kitchen project. Riding on the heightened anticipation of traveling, we decided to be courteous and let our contractor know how long we'd be gone, you know, "just in case", as well as that the kitchen was demoed and ready.

It was not the response we'd hoped. The job ahead of ours decided they needed more cupboards. As a result, they are behind in the cabinet shop, thus ours have not been started. We were understanding and thanked him. After all, he could not have predicted this.

So. I sat and had a bit of a disappointed cry, sitting right there in my pity pot. Randy just looked on and shook his head, feeling helpless. He wasn't relishing the party.

We decided that, when we are back on home soil, we would move the oven back in the kitchen, making it more user-friendly, and allowing me to bake again. This may save my sanity. We will take the skids out from under the washer and dryer, push them together again, and place the top back on it, giving me some counter space.

Once pulling up my big girl panties and hatching this plan with Randy, it healed my bruised heart a bit. In the long run, I'll get over it. I know it will all be worth it, but have to admit, my patience is being put to a real test.

All of this being said, I'm not even going to talk about it anymore. I have a lot of fun things to accomplish in my yard, painting some trim here and there, a plethora of possibilities to keep me out of the house, and away from the constant reminder and its mess.

The next party I have will be much more fun than this one and these Irish eyes will be smiling!

Thanks for coming. ☘


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