September 9, 2025 Rot Day?

 I have not had a day like this in a long time. 

Rhetorical question: Do you ever find yourself not knowing what the heck to do with your day? Ever just feel unsettled for no apparent reason?

Today began perfectly normal. Good night's sleep, coffee accompanied by the usual morning routine. Then I found myself wondering what to do with myself.

It isn't as though there is nothing to do. I could be out painting trim and the garden shed door. The problem is the weather cannot decide what it wants to do. I could do some baking but we don't need bread and the cookies are not gone. Something always need to be cleaned, but...meh. I finished up the laundry yesterday, with the water pump going out on the washer after the last load. That's in progress while we wait for parts. 

I don't feel guilty for not wanting to freight train through another day. August was a lot, and September is beginning the same way. 

What am I doing? I confirmed our reservation for my niece's wedding in 11 days. I removed my toenail polish, anticipating a darker fall color. I have a new collagen mask to try. I also am looking at some hair oil with keratin since I decided not to go shorter but need to read the directions for use.

You know what? I am even considering a really long hot shower followed by my pajamas and a good book for the balance of the afternoon.

Problem solved. Too indulgent? Perhaps, but if I don't take care of me, who will? I've learned the hard way to listen when my body tells me to pay attention.

Promise me, friends, that you will listen, too. Do it for YOU.☘


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