August 8, 2026 Saturday

 This is not a whine-fest.  I'm simply going to outline the circumstances of the last two days to clear my mind.  Honestly, I don't know why I worry about justifying what I write.  It appears I have next to no following, so I'm doing it for myself, and that's okay.

Yesterday:  the one year anniversary of my sister's death. The tractor ride that I had hoped would give me some freedom in my day, cancelled, leaving a disappointed Grand and husband.  I kept on with my plans for the day, errands and groceries, food prep when I got home.  Lots done, with no real satisfaction.

Today:  I was notified of another classmate's passing.  Hubby left for another tractor ride.  You may ask, "I thought you had your own tractor". Oh, I do, but don't get included.  Now understand, my idea of fun is not sitting on a metal seat for miles on end.  Just once, however, I'd at least like to be asked.

I'm not seeking sympathy, just some understanding that aspects of life are heavy right now.

For now, I have cookies and bread to bake.  The Fever play early afternoon.  I'm staying in my pjs and plan to salvage the day.  Social media is on pause.  I cannot begin to tell you how absolutely sick I am of seeing "that" face and all associated with "him", plus the unending, undeserved criticism of the "Hatelin's".

Thanks for listening. ☘

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