January 19, 2025 Attitude of Gratitude

After my last post, I realized I was falling into that pit of frantic activity that serves no one.  Today, I need to reflect on some truly good things.

I'm aware that many choose a "word of the year", I'm assuming to replace resolutions, as a more attainable goal. This was a real struggle for me! Not that I don't have goals, I seem to have several. This is what I settled upon.

Steadfast came to mind first. After suffering so much angst over world events, letting it color so many days, I realized a more valuable use of my time is to recognize why I feel the way I do, all of that wanting to be on the right side of things. What I concluded was that I had to remain steadfast in my morals and ethics, to want only the best for others, and put the awful on a back shelf, where it belongs. I still share my opinions, they just don't rule my days.  It's been easier than I expected to look past the horrible things others say without reply. 

The other issue I must address is more of an internal battle with myself, returning to my tendency of becoming a frantic mess instead of slowing my roll. I'm aware I bring it on myself, and I hope I'm not alone in this. So, faced with a home stacked with things out of place, large areas of walls to paint, I'm making a promise to myself to take one thing at a time, enjoy the process, rather than rush to the result. It never ends well. I'll have to ponder a word that equates to "slow my roll".

I'd be remiss if I didn't add forgiveness for any self-perceived shortcomings. There are just times when I simply "can't" in certain situations and that's okay...I think.

In the midst of it all, I am incredible grateful for the bright spots, and we've been so blessed recently with a significant achievement by our daughter, a grandson who found a more peaceful educational niche that shields him from unrelenting bullying, and another Grand who earned a reward for his hard work and dedication to a sport he only added on last year.  I hope to never take any moment for granted when they come around.

I hope you have a bright spot today. ☘

 

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